Vietnam Trip Part 1

Dear Blog,
 I can't just think of a catchy title right now.

Anyway i am back to home. Home sweet home.I was from my GEP Trip to Vietnam for SVM/ADN students. The experience to Vietnam was definitely an eye opener for me. From the traffic to the cultural life as a whole. I am glad to be born in singapore when you don't have to face the life of real poverty. Let me break down my reflection into days.


Day 1

As we touched down to the hotel from the airport.The traffic was really scary. Motorcycles speeding like nobody business, cars selfishly horning buses to give way and well traffic just basically castrophic. Besides the traffic experience, we had a pre-tour to the ben thanh market to plan for our shopping list on Wednesday. Bought myself a wrist band pretty cool though. After that i wanted to eat maggi with my roommate so around midnight (vietnam time), my roommate and i called the reception just to provide us with the2 bowls and 2 pairs of cultery. First they bought just a spoon because they do not understand what we were saying but eventually they did when we show some actions.

Day 2

We went to Can Gio island. Uhmm went to monkey island to see monkeys and crocs.What was shocking was that we attended an animal circus. We saw how the monkeys, dogs and crocodiles were being treated by thier handlers..It was so crude, the animals didn't want to perform but they were forced to.I can see how sad they were. The most sympathy and rage that was building inside me was for the crocodile.The tail was being cut off and they play with it's mouth like it's a toy.They use wood to force the croc to snap its mouth with the wood.The process repeats itself. It's wasn't a show it was torture. As animal lover myself, i felt disgusted with the way this performance went.They still have the cheek to force the monkey to walk around with a bowl to let people put their cash in. I had a small chat with nadhira about her secondary school life and her talent as a singer.Worth it. Eugene had to sawed away his lock as he locked his luggage with the keys inside. In the afternoon we went to play with our teambuilding games at the beach..One word to describe the beach, breathtaking. It was simple no trees around just the sands and the sea BUT the view was indeed breathtaking. If i actually did watch the sunset i am sure the view will be 10 times amazing..
So we had campfire afterwards where Thaii (our tour guide) taught us some vietnamese poems.Pretty cool though..After that eat Maggi again.This time when my roommate and i called the receptionist, they do not understand what we were saying.The funny part they had a technician coming over with a torchlight and bottle of hot boiling water.That was just plain epic.We had to act it out to make sure that they understand what were trying to say.Eventually they did but i won't forget that experience anytime soon it was just epic.

Part 2 will posted later today..Too tired. will attached some pictures as well.

One Direction...

AND NO I AIN'T FAN.

And yes i do listen and like some of their songs especially What Makes You Beautiful.

Well sorry for the absence. I am kinda clueless what to blog about but maybe i just pen out what's on my mind now...

Well one i am like tevez last season self - exiling myself towards my cca during the month of august. Well there was no cca during the month of august. I mean WTF...So much for self - exile, i heard it go suspended, changed hands and so forth. Actually i kinda like this because the previous management doesn't give a shit about the cca.. Like what most people would say "We only exist when they need something." but ouh well let's just hope that the new management is better than the previous one.

Relationships

I may not be a love guru or anything but this has been bugging my mind for quite a while already because it's about relationships..Ok let me be more specific about it. Girls.

I mean ok i can safely say that sometimes whatever guys are saying to their girlfriends, they are thinking with their dicks and not their brains and it may hurt BUT i am sure they didn't mean what they say so. It just that i think they couldn't figure out a way to break the news without hurting the girl they love too much. Yeah that's more like it.

What's even more intriguing is that some guys tend to take control over in their relationship. They are controlling the actions of their girls.The funny fact is that they are doing a lot of discreet stuff like having a drink with other girls, clubbing etc etc. behind their girls back and worst of all deny it. Respect to the ladies who have encountered or going through this. I may not know how you all actually feel but i know that you will do certain things to make your partners happy and to keep the relationship strong.Kudos to you.No sex alright until marriage? HAHAHAHAHAHA (just adding humor if it's bad, forgive me)

To the guys out there, please spare me the bullshit but if your partner able adapt to their limits that you set for them up i guess you could too adapt to theirs right?

I just hate it if guys were to be dominant in their relationship. I mean come on what are the chances of she cheating on your relationship if you trust her? Yes yes i know she might take advantage of it just like you would too but if she talking about you with your friends and her friends then kudos to you because she's yours. What i can just say is just give them their personal space sometimes because it's not only just you exist  on her mind but her family and friends as well.

So this brings me to the next topic.

ALL GUYS ARE THE SAME.

Please shut the fuck up when you girls say this.Yes i mean it. Don't because of one guy who is a jerk, you assume that all guys are the same because if you think it like that then girl your love is blind. Yes i say it's blind because your just being shallow.Look at the bigger picture please.

There are some guys who's been trying their best to make the girl they like to notice them but sadly they don't. Instead they go for jerks, smitten by their looks and getting hook up with them in the matter of weeks. So when things don't work out between him and you, you go crying to your friends and telling that all guys are jerks. So where's the nice guy who's been trying hard to make you notice him? Ouh yeah, he's been...

FRIENDZONED

I don't know, like i said i am not a love guru or anything. I personally think the most successful relationship comes from the guy who's actually really cares about you, been there for you both your highs and your lows, cheering you on and does stupid things with you and ensure that your happy when you see him.In other words like what i been reading on the loves quotes, facebook picture post and twitter like a best friend. (of course i am still a firm believer that a girl best friend could be a guy.Nothing more nothing less). Look what i am just trying to say is to keep your heart open. You'll be surprised on how different your relationship could be.

Yes i know, you want guys to tell you that they love you. The reasons why guys don't want to say it because they want to show it first and then when the time is right they will say it. The problem with that is it may be too late but heck the effort is there. Maybe if you leave your heart open who knows he's the one. So stop friendzoning (if thats a word) people.

This is just my opinion.On the honest side all i just wish is that girls should stop the friendzone of people...That's all.

Just my Sunday

Today was kinda fun actually.Considering that work for me was usually boring.My colleagues and i went to play around with the olympus tough series cameras...Oh my god compared to the fujifilm xp30, olympus tough cameras have a lot of cool effects such as puzzle blocks,mirrors,black and white,movie directing in which the xp 30 doesn't have.

It was kinda shocking after that as a guy went into the store just to buy 2 Cannon EOS 5d Mark III kit.In addition he paid it in COLD HARD CASH.I mean come on just that one kit cost $5549.He bought 2 and paid fully in cash.Who would actually dare to bring 10 k to Funan? That's totally insane.My colleague, Heidi who was serving him was shock with the cash he bought.The cashier itself felt like as though she had hit Jackpot.

Seeing those DSLR the EOS 600D selling like hotcakes makes me feel that i should have bought one also but then again i need to start doing my financial planning.After my ITE i want to travel across Europe.Meet my older sister and relax before i go for my National Service or Poly.Thought of bringing some friends along but question is who??I wanna enjoy this moment with them.

So currently right now i am planning this friday lesson with my juniors.I wanna do Podcast with them.Work on Nu'Man and Hakim Talkset.I want them to give a goood charade on the opening day..I know they can do it.

Sadly i may come for just a short while, play a cameo or so OR not come at all.My older sister is coming back and I will definitely want to meet her at the airport .Rio is working and well i am short of manpower.There's still Herwan but i know he needs the help he can get...

Hmmm decisions and priorities...

An unfavorable leader proving a point.

The fire i showed to my juniors.I told them that this is the fire i would like to see in them whenever they come into CrC.The amount of passion that they have for this cca inside them.Through this picture they understand how much this means to me.And i thanked them for that.

I just feel like pouring this out.

I know i wasn't the preferred choice to co-lead my cca. To be honest i really don't wish to co-lead a club at first but i am here to prove myself a point.Whether you guys WANT to give that chance is up to you.Hate me if you think i am being hard on my group.I want them to know that CrC is not just a fun club.It is a place to learn and the place where passion play a strong part in the club itself.I don't want them to take the cca lightly.I want them to learn that the cca is a place where they could meet their objectives in life and to grow up with it.Be and outspoken person stand out of the crowd.

There's a reason why i give them those topics.I don't just give it out FOR NOTHING.I want them to be prepared for whats there to come.I want them to think wider.Branch out.Make the topic a bit more interesting.I don't want to hear common facts.I want to hear opinions WITH smart facts.Lastly INITIATIVE.I been telling my juniors time and time again when in doubt ask questions.

"A smart person would ask question to make him smarter.Whereas a smart person who doesn't ask is just a fool like everyone else."

Right now my motivation level for my own cca is draining due to the lack of motivation and support you guys have given me.I wanna change the mindset and view of CrC as the cca but if you guys don't give me that chance i can't do it.I just have to wait until you guys are officially gone and that's where i start to stamp my mark in.I may not know or forgot how the previous president treats you guys BUT i am here to run the cca the way i look at it each day i walk past the room.I run it with passion to learn and to make it as fun and enjoyable for everyone.

IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH HOW I RUN THE CLUB YOU PERSONALLY TELL ME.YOU DON' JUST KEEP IT QUIET.I AM THE PROBLEM BUT I AM WILLING TO LISTEN AND LEARN MY MISTAKES SO THAT I CAN IMPROVE ON THEM.

AND WHEN YOU GUYS SAY I DON'T CARE ABOUT THIS. I FEEL LIKE YOU GUYS DON'T KNOW ME THAT WELL ENOUGH.I LOVE MY CCA.I LOVE YOU GUYS EVEN MORE.WHEN YOU GUYS WERE DOWN OR SHARE PROBLEMS I LISTEN AND DID MY BEST TO HELP. EVEN THOUGH I AM SICK AND LITERALLY HAVE NO VOICE TO TEACH I STILL COME AND TEACH.WHEN YOU GUYS I SHOULD REST HOME I SAID NO.I HAVE A ROLE TO FULFILL AND I WILL FULFILLED IT WITH SINCERITY, DIGNITY AND PASSION IN THAT ROLE ITSELF.

WHEN I TWEETED I DIDN'T WANT TO COME BECAUSE I AM SICK THAT'S BECAUSE I AM SICK PLUS MY LEVEL OF MOTIVATION WAS LOW AS ROCK BOTTOM.THEN AGAIN, I REMEMBER THE PROMISE WE MADE AND THE GOALS THAT I WANT TO ACHIEVE WITH THE CLUB.I CAME AND I TEACH ALONE TILL YOU GUYS CAME.(Thanks Rio for being there earlier than me.)SO DON'T YOU GUYS SEE IT?I CARE I FUCKING CARE ABOUT MY CCA.

Look i am not saying i am completely right about this.I shouldn't have scolded or shown that attitude in front of you guys.It's just that i am frustrated that you guys are not allowing me to teach the way i want to teach.It's like i am the current oic but my subordinates are the ones who are giving orders.I don't like that.It's like you guys have no confidence with me at all.AT ALL. I am pushing my juniors higher.Stand away from the comfort zone because i want to see them as successful campus radio dj's.The juniors understand why i am being hard on them and they respect me for doing it.They know the expectations that i want from them and they are fully committed in meeting those expectations.I want them to make goals for themselves in CrC. Not come in without goals.They are eager to broadcast as soon as possible.I let them provided they can handle the training i am giving to them even if i have to be a dick to them.Even as i wrote this Hakim and Nu'man the ones ready to do the opening show are doing their talkset now and want me to vet on it as soon as it is done.That level of commitment i have to be proud of them because they meet my expectations.AGAIN I AM FUCKING PROUD OF THEM.At least i know i have done something right.They understand that i am doing this to bring the best out of them.Something in which i see in them and i don't see in myself before.That level of commitment,passion and sense of urgency.I have to respect them for this.

And by that i am an unfavorable leader trying to prove a point.

Hate me or like me for this doing this it's up to you.Just don't keep it quiet at all and create a rift between us.I don't like it.I am here to learn and willing to accept criticism even if it breaks my heart o hear it.I want to improve.

CrC is not just a cca for me.It's a place where the fire burns inside me.My passion and the determination of my goals that i wanna achieve in my life it's all in there.

I am sorry if this post were to offend anyone but this is how i feel currently right now.If i were to lose friends because of this then it's okay i accept it.I finally felt cheerful that i let it all out.

Paths and Routes.

Dear friends,

I know you care but i gotta face this route alone.If i were to depend on you guys i am pathetic.I just wanna say thanks for caring.It's now left me to me if i can pick myself from this.I am doing it slowly.One step at a time.I can't change overnight.It takes time.Hey i am still the happy cheerful dude that you know and will always be.

"I still have you guys and that is more than enough."

"beautiful girls all over the world
i could be chasing but my time would be wasted
they got nothin' on you baby "

Bruno Mars

So today had my writing for business paper.I did kinda alright.Not that hard not that easy as well.Just an ordinary paper to me.After that, went home to change and meet friend Shafiqah.We ate Long John Silver.Discuss about ghost and spirits (oo paranormal) but yeah.I know there are many different kind of spirits out there but why always when people describe it it's white?In my own encounters (yes i did encounter one when i was 7 years back then) it was a black cloaked figure.Funny thing it was pitch black that time and i still can see it..Hmm..Different maybe..

After eating at long john we went around looking for items.Though we couldn't find what we wanted Fiqah decided to head to LOT 1 (shopping mall) just to buy GongCha(bubbletea).I then followed fiqah send fiqah to Boon Lay by bus from LOT 1.We separate from there onwards.As she gotta go back early.

Well that pretty sums up my day.I know it's boring but i can't just think of any topic to write for now..So i decided to leave song lyrics extracts on this blog post.Do read and understand what it meant.Bonus would be if you actually take the time to listen to it. Until then,have a good day.

"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over 'cause you're gone"

Kelly Clarkson - Stronger

"I’mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I’m tearing down your balcony"

Eminem - Not Afraid

"But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough"

Selena Gomez And The Scene - Who Says

"Throw your sticks and stones
Throw your bombs and blows
But you're not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me, no"

Katy Perry - Part Of Me

"When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end"

Umbrella - Rihanna Ft Jay-Z

ouh i forgot...

I am slowly moving on.

Cheerio,
Harris

When i am in a relationship.

I will..

1) Let my partner have her own personal space.

I do not want her to see me everyday.I know it may be sweet and all that but don't you get bored seeing one another everyday? Ouh and calling and texting every hour or so?I mean it would be better if you save up the conversation for three days or so?That way you get more to talk about + it makes talking and meeting the partner more meaningful.Besides i would want her to hang out with her other friends as well.

2)Trust fully

Well a successful relationship is build by the trust one has towards the other.I mean i don't mind if my partner hangs out with other guys as as she knows her limits.Then to me it's okay.

3)Not to control.

This and trust are co-relates with one another in a relationship.I mean i don't like it if i were to restrict my partner from doing certain things.I know she doesn't like it either.If i were to control,it shows that i don't trust her you see.I will trust my partner that she won't do anything stupid.Therefore i won't put rules between us.

Commitment and be there when she needs you.

Not much to be said.You should know what i meant. 

(This is my opinion.My perception may change.)

Anyway my weekends were great.Although the job may be boring.My other colleagues make use of it by experimenting the Altec Subwoofer base.I can honestly swear the items that are hanging at the walls are shaking due to bass sound from the subwoofer..That's how deep the bass is.I wanna buy but i just do not know where to put it....

Cheerio

Harris

Live My Life

I would like to thank Zee for chatting with me the entire afternoon and night.

Anyways back to the topic, I been a pessimist before.You know being negative like for almost everything.The hardest setback is the day I confessed to someone.I thought I could get over it somehow it was harder than it seems.At least I am progressing slowly.

"Your still my close friend.You changed me and that I say thank you."

After the vow,I realized there's more to life than love.Although I been telling myself "I just want a companion".I then noticed what are my friends are there for in the first place?they been through my nonsense with me.They been there done that way before me.Although they are now either in a relationship,engaged and happily married (yes I have friends who are married) . They told me to enjoy being single, live your life being single before entering a new chapter in your story.

"God still made you single because he wants you to know there's more to life than falling in love.HE is still writing that perfect love story for you in hope that you be patient with him to let it publicize it for you later in life."

So yes now I am gonna enjoy my life being single.Look at the upside of it.I met my other friends who are girls had fun with them in which those in relationship suffers because of the the rules set by the opposite sex and the level of trust they have for one another.(I found this sad because I lost a couple of good opposite sex friends due to this just to save their relationship sigh.) Hopefully when I meet my soulmate I will be happy and proud that I fall in love with her..

In which my next blog I will write my values should i fall in a relationship.till then,

Cheerio,
Harris

LOVE IS EVOL

Yo bloggers i do like to share this with you..

Is difficult telling yourself that you won’t fall for her but you did.The way she look at you to the way she smile.It brings out those shivers in you.Anticipation,nervousness within you just to tell her “I love you”.Afraid of being rejected from her.Even worse create an air of awkwardness between one another.As a result you will lose the one you care the most.Friendship probably torn apart due to the word “love”.

Then again you may never know that she may embraced it, probably having those same feelings you have for her towards you.It will definitely be a wonderful thing.It may cherished and prosper and it may lead to marriage in the long run.Only if it works out actually.If it doesn’t it will deeply affect you.Mentally and emotionally.The feeling of not wanting to let go but you have to may really tax the most out of you…

Love for me is Evol.It outplays you through your feelings if your aren’t careful..You may end up hurting yourself the most in the end.

Do you think this is true?
Do think about it.


Cheerio,
Harris

Hariz

My Vow

Yo,

Yeah i couldn't think of any other greeting to greet my bloggers.But yes as the title suggest i am making vow to myself and to all the bloggers out there reading this.I am gonna change, not for the worse but for the better.

I vowed that...

I will be happy no matter how shitty my life can be.No matter what adversaries i face i will conquer it positively.This is my story and i will not let my emotions get the better of me.No more.

Somehow...
I do still think of you.Yes i do.

But..
I want to move on forget about you.It's slowly fading.Though it may be painful for me but i know it has to be done.Its got to be done.I don't want to hope anymore.It's stupid i know.So yeah,I will move on.Slowly but surely

Maybe..
Someday i will meet the one.She's there for me i just have to find.Patience is virtue.My virtue if i were to follow it.I want her to love me as much i love her.I want to write my story together with her.

Thank You..
Herwan & Mylia for pointing to me the right direction.For enduring my shits.I know i am the dude who sulks like almost 24 hours.The dude who's negative when you approach him.I just wanna say i am

Sorry..
I will change not because of you two but for myself.I wanna make myself happy.I wanna make you guys happy because i change.I don't wanna just say it i wanna do it.

And..
I treasure the time we spent together as friends..No as siblings.I couldn't say more.You guys are always there for me.For me i just have to thank God for making me meet both of you.Thank you.Your the part of my change.My new vision of my life.I hope our friendship last.

Same goes for you too.You know who you are.I just hope we are still close friends and the promise we kept.
You still mean something to me.That part would never change.

I love my friends.They are all the pillars of strengths that kept me going.

You and I

Yes you..
As i read back my previous post,i know i am lying to myself when i try to forget you.Girl your everything to me.Yes everything.From my hype attitude and to my sadness..To my sorrows and to my happiness.Meeting you change me.Changed me for being who i am.I never like someone as much as you and to be honest your the one who keeps crossing my mind.I can never forget you and the smile you bring in.

I like you for being you.


When you said that you have problem with life and that you don't wish to tell me i feel kinda sad.I want to help you i really do.Yes i may say "i don't wanna know what it is about" but in actual truth what i wanna say was "I wanna know what happen why it happen?Because i wanna help i don't wanna disappoint you.I wanna feel sympathy together with you" because girl i don't wanna see you sad. Like i said the last thing i wanna see is to see you sad.That is not you.Though i may not be part of our life but your still special to me.And that will never change.You know when your sad i am sad and when you cry i cry.(YES PATHETIC i know but like i said your everything to me.)So please don't be sad.Sadness is the last thing i wanna see from you.

Your my motivator,not my demotivator.

"She's the type that makes everybody go crazy.The type where she makes them crazy but at the same time stay true to themselves .The type where she can find joy even at the most saddest of time.Most importantly she the type where she pushes everybody out of their comfort zone and made them think why is there a success story in their life...:)"

Sunday September 11 blog post


The Confession...

You know after the confession, after you left, i cried silently. When you said you were sorry your attached, deep inside i felt hurt.I didn't wanted to show you how i really feel because it will be stupid for me to do so.I also do not want you to see me cry.They say when a guy cry for a girl it means something. To me it means that the guy really loves you.He really do.I cried because i love you but also that it was too late to tell you that.When i said every moment that i spent with you was priceless and indeed i treasure every last one of it.Our moments together is irreplaceable.And when you asked me how long did i love you?I remembered i said from the day i met you to this hour,this minute,this second and now.When you were around our friends i am like "oh shit she's here what am i supposed to do?What am i supposed to say?" .Hahaha the wonders of love it makes you do stupid things. If only i could hug you i will hug you tight because i would never want to let you go because your my everything..Though i must accept the harsh truth..

Your attached.
It's really stupid but i keep telling myself if your relationship do not workout, would i still have a chance with you? I told myself no i want your relationship with him to last till marriage and till death pull both you apart.(i will pray for that.Like i said i don't want to see you sad.)

My promise..


My promise is that i will never leave by your side.To always be there standing right next to you and help you,advice you and cheer you on to fight the negatives of life together whether it's mine or yours.


"I am still your close friend no matter what happens.Till the very end."
Sunday September 11 blog post

Till the very end.
I just wanna tell you that...

Girl, God has given you a beautiful soul.I love you.

I know your reading this and i am prepared to face the consequences of losing you as a close friend(in which i hope it never happens).But yeah i am in love with you.Moving on would be hard because your the only girl that i did something about it rather than saying it.and for you i will try.I will try.

I will try to move on.

I will not keep any secrets about myself from you.

*due to the contents of this blog i decided to keep it private.Only those who are really really close with me could read my blog.

Thinking too much.

Well i guess the title says it all.
And still thinking about it.I do take what others said seriously....As i don't mind they kutuk me but bitching about me that's another story....

Anyway...Today was great.I actually slept for more than 12 hours...I didn't know i was that tired from Blaze Camp..

Blaze Camp was great.Thank god it rained on the very first night and we move in to the chalet :D.My teammates were great.Won the Best group award...Celebrate it like never before...Learning that "a great leader must first be a great follower" was the highlight of the camp for me at least..I guess after that this it will be long for me to ever taste Nasi Laksa ever again..

All About The Shades....

Ouh so yesterday i went Raya Outing with my classmates.As usual i was late for the outing.The time to meet was at 12 noon ended up meeting them at 12 : 45 instead.Hehe i was just plain lazy to get my butt out of bed.(ouh typical me :D)

So the first house i went was Hafiz place.He's place was beautiful.The Bee Hoon was delicious. Heh though i didn't talk much, i was tired..The fact that they took a picture of me trying to catch a bit of sleep was simply hilarious...But oh well at least the food was just plain awesome.

Second House was Muhaimin.Though he's parents were not at home,we still had fun. Apparently Faz,Fiz and Min were playing FIFA 11.A game of the classic El-Classico was underway even during Photo Taking..I guess they can't took their eyes off the game...Btw if they were reading this i was secretly routing for Real Madrid even though i was a fan of Barcelona instead..Sorry.HAHAHAHA

The Third House was Wan's House.The first thing as i step in his house...IT WAS SO BIG.....Added to that,his infamous 'angry bird' goreng was just plain sedapppppppp.Ate his roti curry daging i dunno what..Still it's delicious...

Fourth house was my place...My friends were shocked with my room because it has a sliding door!!!Hahaha then i showed them my gerbil they were even more shocked..hahahaha.I served lontong..Classic?Hahahahahaha.

Fifth house was Eeya..I was intrigued with the building design cause it's old and that's where my curiosity strikes..Her house was cosy.The food hmm,The Mee was wet nevertheless it's taste quite good...:D

The sixth house was Ms Afni.Her house was beautiful..And i got to see little Ayra for the first time..She was so cute but shy..:( Ate Mee Goreng it was nice..Sabree and the rest were interested about the results of our examination but Ms Afni didn't reveal anything..Hahahaha.Honestly i believe the BEV has the most highest passing rate in our class and CPA instead will be our highest failure rate...Well nothing be revealed until the next semester but too bad Ms Afni won't be joining cause she be on maternity leave.Never mind i doa for her smooth delivery.:D

The Seventh house was Haziqah.The first thing that catches my eye about her house is the colorful design of the lights....Like a rainbow.Her house was the two houses ( since the other was Sabree) serving Western Food.Sausages, Nuggets and the Fried Rice.There i was eating a lot of the nuggets..(typical me).I think i ate quite a lot at her place.The food was amazing.But since we were on the rush there was no time to chit chat...hahahaha.

The eight and last house was none other than Sabree.So the first thing i did went i arrive his place was to ask his father i think whether that was Suji or not.His father said yes.And there i was eating it already...Hahahaha so rude but hey when i see Suji i can't resist must eat...So i ate Suji plus Chicken Popcorn.Though it was short because it was 11 : 15.So Hafiz,Liyana,Atikah,Muhaimin and Hyda rushed out..to catch our respective last bus and trains.

As always slenga as i can be i actually took the wrong train home.-.-So ended up i shared a cab with Hafiz and Muhaimin.Didn't know that Hafiz smoke.

Overall the Jalan Raya was fun.Hope i get to do it with them someday again.Pity that Rasul,Wan,Helina,Azira,Afiq and Anis didn't join us.It was great.Anyway that be it this afternoon.Maybe i blog later at night.Hmm

Till Then,

Cheerio
Harris

Decode

Hey,

As promised i will write this.

The person i liked is the person who doesn't see the bad the in everybody.She's the type that makes everybody go crazy.The type where she makes them crazy but at the same time stay true to themselves .The type where she can find joy even at the most saddest of time.Most importantly she the type where she pushes everybody out of their comfort zone and made them think why is there a success story in their life...:)

How i wish that was true....

Ok back to the main topic.

Hmm it's been three months since we met..Honestly at first i didn't know how to approached you..Because your face look damn serious and fierce.I am not lying very serious indeed.So i just follow the flow with the situation and alhamdulilah after like maybe 3 hours or so we started talking to each other and i couldn't find that period of awkwardness between us.Because it's free flowing and i felt like we already had known each other for a long time. So over the months grew by and we started talking,contacting and even sharing a bit of our problems.I felt like honestly when you enter my life it was the one of the best blessings that has given me.Which is you.

But

I just got to know your with someone now..It took most of my spirits away.Thinking of you was a bad idea and there was no way i could shook you off my mind.I feel kinda happy for you being together with him but at the same time sad for myself for not telling that i grew attached towards you..It's okay i don't want it to happen because i just knew it's too rush and i just knew you...Also i rather want us to remained as friends.The free flow sort of relationship that we used to have..I just gotta learn to move on...Slowly i am doing it.Insyallah i make it.I do not want to avoid you or make you feel unrest because it's just not my nature to do it.

I hope i can move on.....Amin...:)

One thing for sure....I am still your close friend no matter what happens.Till the very end.

Cheers
Harris

My life :D

Hey!!!

Sorry for the long update.I been busy.It's been awhile.

It's been 6 months since i was posted to ITE@College West.My life was like a roller coaster since then.Though i been busy i just feel like penning some thoughts down in this blog describing my life in ITE.There is no doubt that my life is sure a slack..It's way different and too relaxed of environment since i was in secondary school.

So what kept me busy?


My CCA.

Yes i had 2 in fact.Student Council and Campus Radio Club.These two cca's amazing in their own ways actually open my eyes of what i really want to achieve in my life in school.

Student Council

If i am not wrong,i join this cca during mid year..Actually i didn't wanted to be a councillor but since my coursemates recommended me and after some persuasion i thought i might give it a try.So far i kinda enjoy how it's run..I think i am lucky to have an amazing president as a friend.:D And yea i am indeed blessed i met some of the most wonderful friends in SC.When i joined SC for the first time they made me feel myself for the first time.It's been long since i was myself..I was this silent kid on the block.Thanks guys for making me feel at ease.
And a bigger thanks to my God brother Herwan for being str8 with me..Pull me down when i am high off my ground.I couldn't ask for a better bro than you.Thanks for being there.

Campus Radio Club

Now where to start?Oh!I know i remember way back then on the third week of april i actually went to personally ask if i can join the cca..And i sign up twice.Yea you guys gave me the wait of a lifetime.I need to admit i was very impatient back then.I was really eager to try to be on air for the first time in my life.So you guys started the cca with a welcome bbq party..:)It was amazing really..I thought at first i am scared that i could not get along with you guys but just like my SC you guys made me feel at ease better yet a place where indeed i truly belong.Yes i just wrote that.Spreading music was my passion.Spreading beautiful songs is and still my passion plus with heartwarming crew indeed i felt i was at home for once.It is like i felt that i knew you guys for quite long time.Heh thank you.I knew i had made some unnecessary mistakes that almost shook the club foundation upside down...And i am sorry...Really i am.Up to now i could not forgive myself for doing that..At one particular point of time i even thought of quitting the club because of my mistakes but after some who advised that was given to me by my friends.Quitting would be the last thing on my mind.I had met some amazing people while i was on CrC who indeed made a big impact of my life forever.You made me a better person than i am now and i can't thank you all enough.So a big thank you to these amazing people who changed me.

Imran
Farhan
Adali
Fadhil
Afif
Alson
Wei Xian
Fatimah
Bliss
Zuhairi
Hassan
Fiqah
Straven

But a bigger thanks to Fiiyah,Mylia and Farhannah aka Mummy.These three taught me that life is always not perfect.It was always a challenge indeed a big challenge.Not everything can go the way i want it to be.But the most important is to be 'me' just me.

Fiiyah taught me that it is best to be yourself and not to give a damn to what others says to you....Being yourself is better than pretending to be somebody your not..

Farhannah had taught me that you can always have a friend to rely on and support you even though when your really down and you feel that it is impossible to get back up again and there your friend would be entering that world when the rest walks out.
I hope i can be that type of friend towards my friends...Amin

Just today mylia told me..

'It's good to be weird because that says your different,Not the same as everyone else'

Thank you Mylia.Again i would never forget that.:D

Tha be it for this morning i post another one later this afternoon if time permits it..I think the next post is what people are dying to see though..What and why is that special someone is indeed special to me?Who she is to you etc etc..

Yes i post that later in the afternoon.I need to think first...Anyway to those readers who reads my blog and enjoys it thank you.:D

For those who didn't I don't give a thought of what you wanna say about me or my blog.My blog my book.

Cheerio,
Harris

My life in SVM QB

I originally wrote this a day after 4/5/2011.You should know what happen during that day.Okay put aside that.The first thing i wanna write is that i am extremely grateful that God has given me a very good class to study with.So i would like to thank HIM and you all for being part of my life.

On the first day i came to ITE I thought that I will see typical minah,ah bengs,ah lians and mats and that my life would be as miserable as it seems.I thought wrong,everything is not what i had expected and to think that i met a class full of extraordinary people,my life began to change.I was surprised at the fact that all of you focused a lot on class bonding in which i feel is important.This is because we are gonna spend 2 years with each other and it's best that we get the best out of it.

During our orientation day,we came out with one of the most weirdest cheers ever and believe me it was.Nobody would have thought of adapting the song OMG into the QB cheers and well i can say is awesome but weird.Don't you think so?Another was LIKE A G6 to LIKE A QB and we failed on that miserably..-.-Next was amazing race..Hehe the best part of it is that i was still memorising names especially our group chinese names.One of them is ZAI in order words is vegetable aka as Winnie.^_^ Then again i had really lots of fun...

But what caught my attention was how really down to Earth you people are.In my education life so far,I have never met a class so down to earth such as this.Really.And i thanked you all for that.I will never forget the day when i was really down due to certain events that changed my life forever.I only told a classmate about my problems but somehow you all knew...I was deeply touched by the support you all had given me.The condenlences,the will to move on with my life and to never looked back.I know that even a simple Thank you isn't enough that sweets wasn't enough.All of you my dear classmates have my gratitude and my respect.

So what can i give?
I wanna make a promise with all of you that i am always here to be your listening ear.Always here when you need me.Like a brother.Support your dreams.That's the only thing i can give..I couldn't pay back that kindness you have showed me but i hope that will do.I am also proud to make you guys part of my family..My family,Yes i am serious.You all are like a second family to me.So i wanna be there for you all if you ever need me...

I know that it's kinda pathetic of me writing this post on my blog might as well i delete it but i am an open minded guy.I am not afraid to hide my problems because i know that you all be there helping me.Being some sort of pillar to me and i thank you for that.
Before i go would want to share a quote with you and i hope you keep this in mind.

'We are loyal and faithful to our friends to the extent we share their troubles as well as their joys. If we cannot weep when our friends weep and rejoice when they rejoice, we cannot be regarded as family.'

Once again i thank you all for being a part of my life.

Thank you my Bunnayah F&M Team

Firstly before i start i would want to apologize for the mistakes i made and if i did any wrong doings that made you want to blow your hat off.Secondly i know it's late but hey better late than never right...
Working with all of you is the most amazing the experience i ever had in my lifetime.At first to be honest,I really didn't know what i was doing or where should we focused on.I felt like giving up and i do remember questioning my leadership to all of you on facebook before.At that point of time Zakir confronted me,telling me 'hey stop questioning your leadership..you are supposed to be our leader..And we stand by it'From that onwards,i decided not to question my abilities and do to my utmost best to guide my group to be the best team that has to offer for bunnayah camp 2011.
Whether be it related to the project or not i still want to do what i can as a leader and i must say i did myself proud.I manage what i think other groups didn't managed to achieve and that's unity..Unity between not only members of the group but together with our 2 mentors as well.Do you guys still remember the part where we stayed at perdaus bedok till 9?We definitely had fun.DEFINITElY from Pizza's to whacky presentations at the classroom.I tell you i won't forget that day.It was probably one of the best day i ever have.And i think you guys too.Another favorite moment i remembered where Amirul transformed to SUPERMONKEY!!!hahaha that was really epic he's personality changes right?Remembered how we actually argued with both co-ods and games team to put supermonkey in.Until Ustaz Hatta had to be involved due to some misunderstanding but hey we got to keep SUPERMONKEY!!!SUPERMONKEY our original work and look at how successful it became..It attracted a lot of kids to the camp.Especially the girl's side.I asked a couple of them on how they were attracted to the camp and it was because they said that Supermonkey was cute.Aww Amirul you have admirers.:D and a job well done Amirul.A job well done.I am also grateful that even after project hours we eat together as a group.Haha from Canadian Pizza, banquet to KFC.:D
During the camp itself,i still talked to you guys and well you didn't leave me out..Thank you again:D
I am truly blessed to work with Zakir,Amirul,Atirah,Khairiah,faris,Hakeem,abg khairil and kak Hazwany and i couldn't ask for more.I wish you all the best for your future endeavours.I am sure you guys have my number do feel free to contact me if you wished too.Keep in touch alright?
And now let us look forward for our outing together as a group.It's gonna be a day of a lifetime.I promised.Just a small request do update our bunnayah f&m group page if you have something interesting to share as i will do the same as well.:D

'All of you are not only just my members but are also part of my one big family as well.'

Harris


Harris.:D

Who Say's

You made me insecure
Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus]

Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says

[Selena Gomez - Verse 2]

It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth


It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus]

Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful

[Bridge]

Who says
Who says you’re not start potential
Who says you’re not presidential
Who says you can’t be in movies
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don’t pass the test
Who says you can’t be the best
Who said, who said
Won’t you tell me who said that
Yeah, oh

[Chorus]

Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful

I found this song really inspiring,it's been a while since i last any of her songs and when this song came out, i was pretty amazed of the lyrics and the style of the music.Really straight forward and cute.If you do have the time to listen to this song,do listen and be amazed of its beauty and meaning like how it did to me.:D

Harrris

If Only....

If Only.....

I could stand up and shout your name out loud...
I could be in your arms...
I could look into your eyes...
I could get close to you...
I could know you...
I could love you...
I could kiss you...
I could hug you...
I could squeeze your hand....
I could hold you tight..
I could give you something to remember me by...
I could make you feel your the only girl in my world...
We could be a rocketeer and flyyyy together to the moon....
I could marry you

but i know

It would never happen...
You won't give me that chance...
That wall you showed to me would not break...
The way you ignored me like i was i was in the wrong...
No matter how much you meant to me,To you i am nothing...
To you i am just a pawned ready to be use...
You talked to me when you need of something...
You won't ever took noticed of me no matter how much i try to get your attention..
You don't even bother to be a friend instead you avoid me...

If only just only

Love is isn't blind.

Life as we all know it.

Before i start i just like to share a little thought with the readers out there.

'Promises were not meant to be broken,they were made for a reason.If you keep a promise be true to your word.Don't back out of it.Trust me if you can keep to your word people tend to have more trust in you than others and you get respected easily.'

People just keep saying to me that their life is messed up.I am sick and tired of hearing this.I, too, have many problems forced being laid down on me.It's up to me to adapt to it and made changes for the better.People too also tend to get argumentative about it saying theirs is worse than the other.If you were to say that then your wrong there.You don't know how messed the other person life is.If it was me my response would be that 'I am about to lose someone close to me.'Enough said..

That's why i been trying to instill myself a sense of patience and to control my anger necessarily but sometimes people just try to test me and i for one don't like it.For years now,i been storing my anger in a bottle.Controlling my anger with patience.but it doesn't work that way.I now realized that i have to share it with someone.Someone i could really trust but i just couldn't find that.

'Life is like a mean machine and it make a mess outta me.'

Yes,i agreed to it.This is life.Life would not be completed with hardships.Do remember every obstacle is a challenge from God.He would want see how we approach and adapt to it.

I am sorry i couldn't write more because i can't really think of what to write but i will reupdate it tommorrow alright:)